Day 02; ENERGY

This morning started out great. Yes, it did. I woke up with ENERGY! Thank you Jesus. Can I get an Amen because yesterday was a total drag. I thought I was on the verge of death.
I have great news, fantastic even, not sure if you read my blog but yesterday I hinted towards starting back on the coffee. I was able to do just fine without it. From now on, I have to turn in a little earlier. I guess I will be multitasking while watching TV. Bummer.

BREAKFAST (225 Calories)
I had my shake but I want my lunch and now! I'm at the point of fantasizing about my next meal. I am not going to lie cause the only way to sustain is to be honest. I am hungry.
How(flippin')ever, I stepped on the scale prior to the shake and had lost an additional 2 pounds from last night. So, now I'm down a total of 4 pounds in two days.
Crystal went to the doctor and she's down about 6 but she didn't properly weigh in. She guessed her original weight based on her February doctor visit. Hello, this is March boo... so I'm going to divide her weight lost by 2 just to make me look better. So, let just go with Crystal lost 3 pounds. LMAO...

LUNCH (177 Calories)
My lunch hour is supposed to be between 1PM and 2PM. Normally I stay within my allotted schedule but at times I may need to go a little later or a little earlier. Today, I am minding my business trying to focus on something other than food. Like work, maybe? All of a sudden around 12:30PM I smell spices, herbs and meats lingering out of the kitchen. In that very moment I prayed my job had a kitchen door oppose to it only having a frame. I mean really? Who thought of that. I could see some hustling contractor who ran out of materials saying, "Uhm, just having the frame, you have to do it! It is what is happening, its the new skinny! I built a frame just like this one for Madonna."
Come on people, if it is important enough to have a "frame" an opening in a wall then make a door because at times you need division. Like, when A PERSON STARVING DOESN'T WANT TO SMELL THE DAMN FOOD LINGERING FROM THE KITCHEN.
It is hour later and I'm still annoyed over here feeling like Mariah Carey's "We Belong Together"...

SONG
I can't sleep at night when you are on my mind
Sarah Lee's on the television saying to me
If you think you're hungry now
Wait a minute this is too deep
I gotta change the channel so I turn the channel
Trying to catch a break and then I hear Jack (Jack N' the Box)
I only think of you and it's breaking my heart

I'm trying to keep it together but I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm denying food, starving Trying to figure out
where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song it ain't even
half of what I'm feeling inside
I need a big Mac in my life, baby
(We belong together)
When you left I lost the fatter me
It's still so hard to conceive
Jumbo Jack & fries, please
Cause we belong together
What else am I gon' snack on when times get rough
Who's gonna comfort me and my belly 'til the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
there ain't nothing else
Oh, Jumbo Jack, we belong together, baby
When you left I lost the fatter me
It's still so hard to conceive
Jumbo Jack & fries, please
Cause we belong together
What else am I gon' snack on when times get rough
Who's gonna comfort me and my belly 'til the sun
comes up
Who's gonna take your place there ain't nothing else
Oh, Jumbo
Jack, we belong together, baby

On my way to lunch, I spoke with a couple of coworkers. I was explaining (thinking) that some Protein powder has hemp in it. If you don't know about hemp google it. I was thinking that maybe if I took it, I could catch a buzz. Seriously. Come on, I need to be high to endure this.
On a much brigther note, lunch was delicious. Ohhhh goodness. I did not want it to end. I had a shrimp salad that was the bomb-diggity. I'm starving but I'm please to have satisfied my taste buds. It seems like it has been a life time (1 day) Shut up! I now see hope at the end of the rainbow.

DINNER (144 Calories)
Does it matter what I ate, whatever it was it wasn't a lot. I think I had a steak salad. I would have loved a Big Mac. I thought about relapsing several times today. Yes, I am a food addict. I need it more than a crackhead needs a hit. Man, I'm grumpy, I'm emotional but most importantly I'm starving. Geez! This is extremely hard. Well, that enough said. 2 down and 11 to days to go. 11 long hard days.