Day 15; BREAD, Finally!!!!

I eat too many calories to log in my blog. Opposed to logging everything, I give you my net calories the next day. ...So, Today was the first time I tasted bread in 14 Days. It was so romantic. A moment that really can't be described in words. I was pretending not to notice it sitting on my desk but we locked eyes a couple of times. Bread whispered to me, I'm healthy, I'm 12 Grains, Whole Wheat. I asked myself, "is it really OK?"
I couldn't understand what was happening? ...I wasn't suppose to resist because Phase 1 allows bread but at this point, bread is so foreign to me. I took that first bite and realized the reason my bread didn't need butter is because I melted.
Oh, yeah. I finished Detox without cheating. (Bows, Bows). I am officially 20 pounds lighter and I am so happy to have my badge. Hence the reason I did not blog over the weekend. I was on a mission. All that I was able to do was eat, workout and sleep. I've never been so drained in my life.
Which is the reason why I pulled off of the P.I.N.K Method's diet plan, I had to remix it. If I see the scale going North, I'll go back to their rules and regulations but, I know if I don't eat 5 to 6 times a day my body is going to store fat and run itself into starvation mode. I've picked up two additional meals. I know I could stop exercising but I've pushed myself so far, I can't stop now.
Sunday, I ran 40 Min & walked 43 Min and did about 15 Min of stretching, which is far from the blog that talked about me running 1 Minute, so, yeah. I'm not stopping.
Walking/Running will be something of my future. Supposedly it take 7 days to develop a habit, I'm there.
I don't even know who the chick is that stares back from my mirror. She's way more independent and her drive is out of this world. Instead of sitting around doing nothing (and making excuses) I finally got off my ass and did something.
I loved sleeping in, now I can't. I'm so excite to start my day. I use to get up, shower and go to work all in the same breath. Now, I'm up between 5:10AM and 6AM.
Not sure if you know the song but I'm definitely feeling like Christina Aguilera, Reflection.

Who is that girl I see,
Staring straigh back at me,
When will her reflection show
Who I really am, Inside.

Love you all & Peace.

ttyl

Day 11; I RAN... Yes I did.

Breakfast (225 Calories)
No surprise in my calorie intake. It has been the same breakfast for the past ten days. ...but on a more me note. I RAN, OMG!!! I just can't believe that I took off running. It was for 1 Minute and then a break to catch my breath and then I did it again for 2 Minutes. Ha, I was literally like Forrest Gump, "I just felt like runnnnnnniiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnggggggggggg". ...and I did it, I felt so freaking accomplished. Like really, I never imagined this could happen to me. WOW. Not to mention today I am 16 pounds lighter, 4 pounds from my 20 pounds loss badge. Real talk though, I don't think my breast were designed to go into the air and come crashing back down. Seriously, they are so flipping heavy. I thought I was going to go rolling forward all the way home. Instead of this blog saying I ran, it would have said I rolled home ------ and not in a car. LOL... that is such a funny visual. I will keep it real. I hope after I lose this weight, I still have some nice boobs. After I finished my awesome morning cardio, I showered, weighed myself and made my protein shake. I headed to work while rushing to put on my make-up. Yeah, I may not be able to drive and text but I definitely make-up apply and drive. What, I'm careful. Once I got to work I noticed the kitchen had bagels. Yummy!!!! ...and there was also fresh fruit. Man, I did... (I will be honest, breakdown) ...I think a tear left my eye because I really wanted that bagel. I'm so burnt out on veggies. Seriously.  14 days of pure veggies and meat is illegal, yep. It is effective but so are other things that are illegal. Man, one day bread and I will meet again. Actually, after detox I'll be enjoy brown rice or wild rice and flourless bread. Yeah me. Not, really. But still, I ran. I did it. I flipping ran!
LUNCH (221Calories)
For lunch, I switched it up and had a chicken salad. I took half a day so after I left work (earlier), I was able to get in some twins and Aunt (T.T.) time. They are so flipping adorable. I had them in the back of my car when all of a sudden it got completely quiet. I looked back and they were knocked out. I needed a few things from Walmart. A food scale, Crystal burnt the last one, and a tape measure. Well, as you can imagine, the twins were not too happy when I woke them from their nap. They both cried. So, my two items ended up in toys for the twins. They hustled me into a stuff animal, bubble blowers and more bubbles. Yep, I'm a sucker. Then I bought them McDonalds. None for me right. Right... :( 
DINNER (114 Calories)
So, since I had a chicken salad for lunch I ended up having Tuna for dinner. Yummy, right. Wrong. I'm about tired of that salad but only three more days and detox will be over. For dinner I bought the twins and their step sisters pizza, yeah. No, still none for me. What a flipping day. Bagels, McDonalds and Pizza. Well, I succeeded in Fighting the Fat, I resisted every time and I can't believe this. Good job me. :)

Day 10; Fight the Fat, the MOVEMENT

BREAKFAST (225 Calories)
Welcome to the newbies and welcome back to those who have read my blog before. Today is my 10th Day in detox and I am cheat free. Also, I've hit a bench mark. 15 pounds lighter. Just 5 away from my 20 pound badge. Holla at cha girl. Now on to my day... I woke up @ 6:15AM because waking up at 6:30AM didn't give me enough time. Still, 6:15 wasn't enough either. I did get in a 35 minute power walk, although I didn't want to. I stayed up until after midnight watching movies which made me set my mind to making  walking the next morning optional, and I was leaning towards the sleeping in option. However Carmel, my older sister must of since my will to slack because she woke me up @ 6:13AM and just to know that she cared enough pushed me to get out of bed and go "Fight the Fat". Join the movement.
LUNCH (114 Calories)
I had the same boring tuna salad. I have taken all of the fun out of it by repeating it but, it is quick and it is low in calories. Lunch went by quickly as soon as it started it was over. I did talk to my mom who is excited and is definitely part of the "Fight the Fat" movement.
DINNER (256)
A chicken salad, which was actually really good. Rewinding back, I did get in a walk right after work. Then I started reading my P.I.N.K. booklet. Afterwards, I ran a couple of errands and then had dinner. I watched American Idol and went straight to bed. I can't believe how different I feel.
I definitely want to eat sugars and lots of carbs but its like the skinny chick inside me is tired of the fat chick running things.

BREAKFAST (225 Calories)
Guess what I had? I bet you can't. My Protein Shake. ...it was too much. This morning I set at my desk praying to get through my thick @$$ room temperature smoothie. Yucky. I didn't realize until I went to grab some strawberries out of the freezer that we did not have any frozen berries. Thank God their were some strawberries in the refrigerator. Today I noted that the smoothie definitely needs ice. This morning I started off with a prayer and a power walk. P&P! @ about 10PM, I felt like dropping my head on the desk and just knocking out. I think that these walks are draining me. I might have to revert back to power walking in the evening. I just can't focus with such little energy.

LUNCH (114 Calories)
Tuna salad, as boring as it is the calories intake is amazing. I am finding that I have less energy these days, maybe because I started working out despite that the book advise us not to. Ooops my bad. Not really.

DINNER (264 Calories)
I had my mushroom and red bell pepper roasted salad. It was delicious too. ...but, I want to rewind to right after work. I decided to get in a power walk and some stretches. I know I'm a heavy chick but why do drivers in their cars turn and look at me in awe. I wanted to scream you got to start somewhere. Anywho, I happily plopped my plump booty down the street rocking out to whatever was playing on my Evo. Then I got back to the house and did some stretches. Cooked dinner and sat down to enjoy a nice movie. My net intake was a negative. I noticed I'm not dropping pounds as fast as I was last week.

Day 08; Congrats to me for completing week one.

BREAKFAST (225 Calories)
So, I actually blog on my phone through out the day and then post at night. I'm letting you know this because I'm tired of going back at night and editing the tense of my blog. So here is an fyi, I'm not editing the tense anymore. If my blog is all over the place (tense wise) my bad. I woke up at 6:42AM oppose to 7:20AM and got in a 32 minute walk before work. My legs are killing me, these power walks are to much for the fat chick, the skinny b!+@# inside me is demanding and isn't really taking no for an answer. Seriously though, I've used muscles I didn't even realize I had but on a brighter note, I'm officially on week two of detox and I didn't even cheat. I really didn't see this happening and I definitely didn't see me walking. As I sit here sipping on my smoothie, I'm so delighted.

LUNCH (114 Calories)
Its getting kind of boring with the same lunch and breakfast everyday. I work so I have to eat what is quick, not to mention my boring tuna salad is so little calories I can't help but to keep eating them.
At lunch the twins had me doing the impossible I made oatmeal, butter & jelly toast, and a pepperoni and melted cheese sandwich with mayo and mustard. Gosh, It all smelled and looked so good. I knew the boys would waste most of it and back in the day, I looked forward to that. Now, I can't be their human garbage disposer. Sucks for me, right.

DINNER (256 Calories)
Dinner was definitely the best meal. I had no idea what I was going to have but I ended up have a chicken breast salad. Yummy. After dinner I was totally pooped. I cuddle on the couch with Monaco and next thing you know, I was out. That is the main reason I couldn't finish my blog.

Day 07; One week of detox down & one to go

BREAKFAST (222 Calories)

Woke up and immediately said a prayer, yesterday ended in a negative place. This morning I felt much better. I step on the scale and was down 2 more pounds which was excellent. I immediately woke up and did a 30 min power walk. Afterwards I went to Crystal's. Everyohe hene was sleep. After I grabbed a water bottle Jonnah appeared in the door frame of his room. I asked if he was hungry. While I made my protein shake, I multitask and made oatmeal while washing the dishes. Jonnah asked for Butter Toast. I made it and asked if he wanted jelly, he acted as if the idea was absurd. So I split his toast and made half with and half without. So since he was pretending jelly was foriegn to him he made me handle the toast until the jelly slid down my fingers. Instincts took precedence and I look the jelly from my fingers. The jelly was so foreign to my tongue I immediately knew it was wrong. I ran to the sink and spit it out before washing my mouth out.

LUNCH (116 Calories)

I had a repeat of yesterday's lunch. Today was the first time I had lunch away from the house. I had to attend Ellah's birthday party, by the way happy birthday Ms. Ellah Rae! There were cupcakes, pizza, chicken and pasta salad. I succeeded though, I didn't give into temptation, oh but-ah Crystal did. We were talking outside when Crystal got "weak". I asked her what was wrong and she lied and said, "My sugar is low I need a cupcake". Five minute later she was indulging. She relapsed and did food. I just couldn't do it. Old habits die hard so instead of getting on Crystal I offered to help her walk it off tonight

DINNER (241 Calories)
Yummy. I had steamed veggies and chicken. Usually I don't eat veggies and if I would eat them or steam them I'd buy steamers. Today my uncle taught me how to steam vegetables. He reminded me so much of my late Grandmother. Instead of giving direction he got up and took over. I'll will admit he showed me something new and great. So, all in all today was a great day and as much as I would love to stay and blog my nephew Jonnah is walking in circles trying to sit in my lap.

Peace, see you guys soon.

Day 06; So much more energy

BREAKFAST (222 Calories)

Hello, hello! So, I had my protein shake but ended up taking a walk before and after. I took the boys on a walk to the store oppose to driving. Afterwards I had them outside riding a bike and a scooter. Jonnah, scared the living daylights out of me when he decided to jump off his scooter and run home. We weren't far from the house but far enough that he was out of my site for about 30 seconds. Can you say lost my mind. I figured we'd be on the 5 O'clock news, either for a missing child or and beaten one. My God, I wanted to go toe to toe with a 3 year old when I got to the house and Crystal was walking out asking me what happen. I forgot to ask God for guidance and strength today. ...but I did take a moment to pray after that. After all that is said, I ended up burning 300 Calories making my net  -75, yes that is a negative seventy-five.

LUNCH (116 Calories)

I had a tuna salad. 4oz of Tuna in water (drained), 1/2 tablespoon of Reduced fat Mayo, 1 tablespoon of Frenchz Yellow Mustard, 1/2 a green onion, 1/2 a Roma Tomato and 2 cups of lettuce. It was filling but the calorie count is ridiculous considering other meals I've eaten. I took a 20 Minute walk with the twins and burnt that off immediately. Also tricked the twins into eating tuna and tomatoes. They don't know it yet but they are going healthy too. My 20 min walk burned 138 calories putting my net at -95. I really am working towards a happy healthier me.

DINNER (365 Calories)

Man, I am definitely feeling like I deserve a treat. I need bread, at this point I am so tired of flipping vegetables. They like don't satisfy my taste buds ( period). I wanted to do food today, my night went downhill and fast. The boiler broke at Crystal's and my body is craving a shower more than I am craving chocolate or carbs. I'd turn a trick for a cinnamon roll. I have no idea how I am going to survive Ellah's birthday party tomorrow. Please pray for me. Oh and by the way I had chicken and green beans for dinner. I might take a walk or at least that is what the skinny b!+@# would like but the fatter me has that b!+@# in a headlock screaming, "Now what!"

Day 05; I AM SUPER WOMAN

BREAKFAST (222 Calories)
This morning, I was feeling so motivated. After a little prayer. Father please guide me and give me strength. Please give me the will for a better me, in Jesus name, Amen!
I popped in my headphones and rocked out to Alicia Key's, Superwoman. Today, I definitely feel like I got an S on my chest cause I am superwoman. I'm 10 pounds lighter. What? In five days I've lost 10 pounds that average to 2 pounds a day. For breakfast I happily sipped on my protein shake.
Not to mention, I found out (this morning) that I brought inspiration to one of my Shero's through this very blog, which totally surprised me. It is crazy because this person inspires me too. I definitely see her as a Woman with an S on her chest. I love you boo.
Goodness, I think my confidence just boosted from 70/30 to 80/20 in completing the P.I.N.K method, which means I'm getting stronger with each passing day. The Skinny B!+@# in me would like to say congratulation to the Fat Chick that finally did something.
Today we got an email that there were St. Patrick Day Cupcakes in the kitchen. I just want everyone at my job to know that this was a fat week. On Wednesday the Pizza Party and today, the Cupcakes. 
Why do people equate unhealthy food to caring, when it is just the opposite? Unhealthy food should actually be equated to a shorter life span, high blood pressure and diabetes. Do you know most sweet foods (even pizza) was/is called a treat. Not to say that humans are dogs or dog like but in most cases doggie-treats are used as reward mechanisms. To many of us fatties "treat" ourselves when a reward isn't called for. Over indulging has become the norm which takes the meaning out of sweet treat. Instead of treating oneself we have start cheating ourselves of good health, of energy and most importantly of LIFE.
So, there are cupcakes in the kitchen to any one that wants a sweet cheat. I will be celebrating with greens, such as lettuce, spinach, broccoli and whatever else will help the healthier me. (the fat chick in me just past out - LMAO).

LUNCH (191 Calories)

I ran an errand before heading to Crystal's house. The building was next to In & Out. I'm very proud to say I didn't even smell the burgers cooking and I can always smell the burgers. It wasn't until I was a block from Crystal's that I noted to myself that the restaurant didn't phase me.  Afterwards, lunch went by quickly. I had another shrimp salad. It was alright. I think I've decided that I don't like shredded lettuce.It is tasteless.

DINNER (326 Calories)

My dinner was very tasteful. I had 4oz of Chicken, 4 Brussels Sprouts and a Yummy Mushroom Salad. The salad recipe is on my Recipe Page. Dinner was also very filling. I'm not suppose to workout during the reset but I'm a little bored tonight so I'm going to take a walk. Which is great because it will offset some of the calories I consumed. EDITED I burned 308 Calories, after my walk my net was 434.


Day 5 Completed 742 Calories in take
Good bless you readers and please return soon.

Day 04; I Can Do It

BREAKFAST (222 Calories)

I pray God is able to keep me strong and that he gives me the strength to sustain, in Jesus name. Amen!

Good Morning & happy pay day to me. I started this beautiful morning with a Protein Shake. It actually taste better than the previous 3 days but today I actually gagged on the shake. If you're curious, I'll have to tell you why in a private message.

I am happy to report, today my energy level is back! I have a tiny bit more room in my clothes and I fell satisfied. The B!+@# in me is subsiding. You're welcome to those around me. Also, my cravings have subsided. A lot of this is mind over matter. Its like Skinny and Fat fight inside me every day. Right now Skinny is on her hustle. My confidence has boosted another 10%. I'm now at 70/30.
My goal on the P.I.N.K. website is to complete detox without cheating. I'm only 4 Days in but thereare only 10 left. It beats 14, right! Pray for me, please.

LUNCH (206 Calories)

Lunch is starting later than normal. 30 minutes and I can't believe I'm not on the verge of passing out. So many things to report. I smelt someone eating leftover pizza from yesterday and it almost didn't phase me. Almost... I did note to myself that I didn't have the feeling I had on Monday when the twins were eating grilled cheese and tomato soup.
Picture this. Innocent unsuspecting Monaco sitting in front of the TV eating his grilled cheese. The way he danced it through the air was taunting. ...I know I looked like a super duper weirdo but I couldn't help giving him that creepy eye. My sister, his mother asked, "What's wrong?"
I snapped back into reality and said, "I was going to jump up, slap the shit out of you child, steal his grill cheese and drink his tomato soup like it was water. Then beat my chest like the hungry flippin' bear I am."
...good thing is I'm not there anymore.

DINNER (395 Calories)

After work I hurried to Crystal's house. I wanted to check on my nephew Jonnah, who had a panic attack earlier. I guess he missed me. I got there and clothes were everywhere. Crystal was sorting them in order to wash. Since we were out of meats we knew we had to make a run to the store. Normally at 5PM I am ready to eat. I'm doing better now that I'm in day four. Still it was past 6PM and dinner wasn't even started. Crystal is the slowest rushier I know. She was washing dishes, doing laundry and meanwhile I'm feeling the inner b!+@# damn near coming unleashed. After about 20 minutes of Crystal slowly rushing I put the twins shoes, walked them to the car and after letting them in buckled them up. I quickly joined them. She eventually got the hint. Shopping was supposed to be in and out. Grab a few things and come home. We ended up spending at least an hour. Then we headed to McDonald's to get the twins happy meals. Might I add, they got all the snacks in the world. Candy, Cinnamon Rolls and Cookies. I'm proud to report I did not give in to the temptation. I had 2 chicken thigh, green beans and a small salad.

Day 4 (826 Calories)

The day was pretty good although I did get pretty hungry between lunch (1:45PM) and dinner (8:16PM). Hopefully things go better tomorrow and the days to follow. I learned that water is key. I'm on my 12th cup. Well, hopefully you come back tomorrow but it is getting late and I need some rest. 

Peace

Day 03; ...eMoTiOnAl

BREAKFAST (225 Calories)

No surprise here, I had my usual protein shake and 2 cups of water. Happy to report that I'm not even close to as hungry as the past two days.
I feel satisfied and able to focus. Last night, I broke down and gave the P.I.N.K. Method to God. Something I should have done on Monday, when I started the detox/reset.
Also, I have a lot more focus at work. Thank God.

LUNCH (211 Calories)
Things started out well and might I add ended well. This process is a very emotional journey. Today my office had a March Madness kick off Pizza Party. Which I uninvited myself to. To think, when I need them to be supportive they're pigging out like the piggy I use to be. Anyway, I manged to escape the kitchen without ducking in to steal a cup of soda or a slice of pizza. All praises be to God.
I jumped in my car and headed to Crystal's were I totally blew the hell up. I just went off like a crazy mad woman. I totally missed the days of processed foods. I almost relapsed and did food. Yep, it is a drug and we or I definitely did it, used and abused it . Good news is Crystal and I are great and we apologized immediately. No love loss there and I didn't break the P.I.N.K Rest Diet. Let me say thank you Jesus.
I feel absolutely great on so many levels. (1) Sustaining and (2) I'm satisfied. My spinach salad definitely didn't stuff me but I'm satisfied.
That hasn't happened in two days, I promise. Now, all I have to do is get through tonight.
Day 3 was a breeze (so far)

DINNER (Calories 187)
OMG... I am full. I couldn't finish my 4oz piece of chicken and my roasted veggies. I only got half way through when I gave up. No need to over stuff myself, right! I'm so flipping excited. I haven't felt this feeling in umh... ...forever!!!!!!!!!!! Day 3 ended on a great note, plus I've lost 3 more pounds. I'm officially down 7 pounds and counting.
God is good. The only thing I did differently was started with God. Man, what was I thinking...
I always do that, set myself up for failure by thinking I can do things on my own.
I even was good while making dinner (spaghetti for the twins) and my unfinished dinner. I am definitely over here patting myself on the back. I see light at the end of the tunnel. I think my chances of success with the P.I.N.K Method just increased from 50/50 to 60/40.

Day 02; ENERGY

This morning started out great. Yes, it did. I woke up with ENERGY! Thank you Jesus. Can I get an Amen because yesterday was a total drag. I thought I was on the verge of death.
I have great news, fantastic even, not sure if you read my blog but yesterday I hinted towards starting back on the coffee. I was able to do just fine without it. From now on, I have to turn in a little earlier. I guess I will be multitasking while watching TV. Bummer.

BREAKFAST (225 Calories)
I had my shake but I want my lunch and now! I'm at the point of fantasizing about my next meal. I am not going to lie cause the only way to sustain is to be honest. I am hungry.
How(flippin')ever, I stepped on the scale prior to the shake and had lost an additional 2 pounds from last night. So, now I'm down a total of 4 pounds in two days.
Crystal went to the doctor and she's down about 6 but she didn't properly weigh in. She guessed her original weight based on her February doctor visit. Hello, this is March boo... so I'm going to divide her weight lost by 2 just to make me look better. So, let just go with Crystal lost 3 pounds. LMAO...

LUNCH (177 Calories)
My lunch hour is supposed to be between 1PM and 2PM. Normally I stay within my allotted schedule but at times I may need to go a little later or a little earlier. Today, I am minding my business trying to focus on something other than food. Like work, maybe? All of a sudden around 12:30PM I smell spices, herbs and meats lingering out of the kitchen. In that very moment I prayed my job had a kitchen door oppose to it only having a frame. I mean really? Who thought of that. I could see some hustling contractor who ran out of materials saying, "Uhm, just having the frame, you have to do it! It is what is happening, its the new skinny! I built a frame just like this one for Madonna."
Come on people, if it is important enough to have a "frame" an opening in a wall then make a door because at times you need division. Like, when A PERSON STARVING DOESN'T WANT TO SMELL THE DAMN FOOD LINGERING FROM THE KITCHEN.
It is hour later and I'm still annoyed over here feeling like Mariah Carey's "We Belong Together"...

SONG
I can't sleep at night when you are on my mind
Sarah Lee's on the television saying to me
If you think you're hungry now
Wait a minute this is too deep
I gotta change the channel so I turn the channel
Trying to catch a break and then I hear Jack (Jack N' the Box)
I only think of you and it's breaking my heart

I'm trying to keep it together but I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm denying food, starving Trying to figure out
where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song it ain't even
half of what I'm feeling inside
I need a big Mac in my life, baby
(We belong together)
When you left I lost the fatter me
It's still so hard to conceive
Jumbo Jack & fries, please
Cause we belong together
What else am I gon' snack on when times get rough
Who's gonna comfort me and my belly 'til the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
there ain't nothing else
Oh, Jumbo Jack, we belong together, baby
When you left I lost the fatter me
It's still so hard to conceive
Jumbo Jack & fries, please
Cause we belong together
What else am I gon' snack on when times get rough
Who's gonna comfort me and my belly 'til the sun
comes up
Who's gonna take your place there ain't nothing else
Oh, Jumbo
Jack, we belong together, baby

On my way to lunch, I spoke with a couple of coworkers. I was explaining (thinking) that some Protein powder has hemp in it. If you don't know about hemp google it. I was thinking that maybe if I took it, I could catch a buzz. Seriously. Come on, I need to be high to endure this.
On a much brigther note, lunch was delicious. Ohhhh goodness. I did not want it to end. I had a shrimp salad that was the bomb-diggity. I'm starving but I'm please to have satisfied my taste buds. It seems like it has been a life time (1 day) Shut up! I now see hope at the end of the rainbow.

DINNER (144 Calories)
Does it matter what I ate, whatever it was it wasn't a lot. I think I had a steak salad. I would have loved a Big Mac. I thought about relapsing several times today. Yes, I am a food addict. I need it more than a crackhead needs a hit. Man, I'm grumpy, I'm emotional but most importantly I'm starving. Geez! This is extremely hard. Well, that enough said. 2 down and 11 to days to go. 11 long hard days.

Day 01; ...a new beginning

I guess you could say, I've come to the realization that change isn't as easy as I would like it to be. However, attitude and determination promote change. If I stay positive my chances double. Which is great because my confidence was at 25% but now with the attitude and determination boost, I'm pushing a hard 50%. Meaning, there is a possibility.

BREAKFAST
Very Berry Protein Shake, 222 calories.
It seems the odds are against the healthier me. I had to wake up ten minutes earlier and I was still ten minutes late to work. I am snoozer. I will snooze my alarm at least ten times before I actually crawl out of bed. Instead of my normal ten snoozes I only snoozed eight time. I thought while I was blending my shake, I'd do my make up. When I got in the kitchen every utensil I needed to make my protein shake was dirty. I was a little frustrated that I had to knock out some dishes before work. I got the blender going but got distracted with making my snacks (carrots and cherry tomatoes). I pulled my shake from the blender and found a lid that I ended up having to jimmy on. I sat my shake on the couch so I could grab some waters ...I wasn't even gone from the couch for 30 seconds. My shake ended up leaking. I had to clean that up too! ...and then I did my make up. Once I got to work I went into the kitchen to rinse the shake from the outside of my cup. The coffee pots were staring at me all rude like. I mentally said, good-bye. Coffee will not be in my diet for the next 7 days. I hurried down the hall to get to my desk. I just wanted to be alone. Once I got to my desk I couldn't remove the lid to the freaking shake. Who would of thought??? I would have and I did think it. Why would it open, why would this be easy. If it were so easy everyone would be walking around eating healthy. This is what I get for pounding the lid on. (SIGH) ...not the 50% of me that has the positive attitude and determination but the 50% of me that doubts myself wanted the lid never to open. I could hear that 50% saying, forget about it, you tried, "GO GET SOME COFFEE".
The other 50% of me stop and asked God for his intervention. "Please, in Jesus name help me get this lid off, please!"
With little effort at all, the lid screwed off and might I mention, there was no mess. :)

LUNCH
Surprisingly, lunch was quite filling. I had a salad and 4 oz of steak. Like I mention earlier in this entry. Preparation is timely. It took me an hour to make and eat lunch. Or maybe I don't feel like scarfing down a salad, just ain't as tasty as hamburgers and french fries.
A good friend of mine told me I'm doing this completely wrong. I'm supposed to be weaning myself off. Well, I'm a cold turkey type of girl. I deprive and that's how I quit.

DINNER
I had a yummy 4oz of salmon, some broccoli and some cauliflower. Can you say, delicious. I can but I'd be lying. I learned today that this is called RESET aka detox. All I can say is I am addicted to food. I definitely need a support group or a sponsor, something. I'm having withdraws... not physical but psychological. I want to eat cookies. Just to feel the processed almost tasteless cookie crumble in my mouth. Hmm... It ain't happening though.

DAY 1 (Completed w/ 831 Calories taken in)
I completed day one with thirteen days of the Reset (detox) left. Oh, and somehow I've already lost 2 pounds. Can you believe that? I can't. Just the encouragement I needed because I had no idea what I had in store. Unfortunately the P.I.N.K method doesn't go into detail about the food plan. If I had known I think I would have hesitate in whipping out the cash. Not because I doubt the results just because I would prefer to eat a little bread or maybe an apple. The detox is crucial. I feel like a Holocaust survivor. 24 hours are to many to control myself, I'm thinking. I'm debating on going to black coffee tomorrow. My energy level was low, low, low. As much as I want to detox without cheating, my job pays my bills.
Well, I'm off to cook some chicken and beef for tomorrow, well maybe.

...and it begins

SATURDAY
BREAKFAST
If you truly follow my blog, then you know that last night went a little rocky. This morning wasn't that much better. I totally get B!+@#-y if I'm hungry and I was so hungry. We went to Walmart to pick up some Vanilla Whey Protein, a scale, some weights, a food scale and some groceries. This morning I did not appreciate that Walmart had everything, especially a Mc Donalds. Gosh, how easy and convenient life was when I could just grab a bite to eat while shopping.
I was good though, I battled the store and gave Mc Donalds the middle finger before going home and drinking my protein smoothie/shake. Which might I add ended up being 222 calories and good for me oppose to however many calories are in 2 Cheese Burgers, a Medium Fry and a Coke. Man, I'm salivating just thinking about it.

LUNCH
Well...
I stood in the kitchen dicing vegetables with all the confidence in the world. I was preparing lunch and dinner. I promise you this, dicing vegetables should be listed as a calorie burner. Geez... the work involved in cooking is a bit much. I was in the midst of making season-less salmon and season-less steak when Crystal asked me to throw a pizza in the oven for the kids. Her twins and her two step daughters where being rambunctious so she was trying to settle them down. The aroma of the pizza quickly filled my nostrils. Hunger started banging at my door but I coaxed myself in to believing I could do it. After our lunch was prepared; Salmon, tomatoes, broccoli and cauliflower. We grabbed our plates and made our way into the living room. My will power was still in tact. I took a couple of bites of my beautifully prepared lunch and totally broke.
Crystal and I grabbed some pizza and went to town with the kids. Man, the way the cheese danced on my tongue it should have been illegal. It was like my tongue was the stage and the cheese and pepperoni were well trained ballet dancers and I really indulge in that ballet. I couldn't stop myself. After that I grabbed some powder doughnuts. I wanted anything that wasn't healthy. Afterwards I felt a little bad but came to the realization that starting and new life change isn't something to do with a house full of kids. We decided to push it back until Monday Morning when things are a little more routine.

Push back!

Midnight, the beginning of a new healthier life, or at least it was supposed to be. The excuses of why I can't have already started. Too bad being psyched about the P.I.N.K. Method is slowly fading.
I'm beyond irritated.

The Intro

The seriousness of the pink method just hit me.  Crystal, my younger sister and I just watched the Intro. For some reason I thought the workouts would be easier.
My excitement dwindled a little.
I just have to believe in me.
Saturday morning it is.

The Arrival

Haunting music plays in the background...
Well, it is offical. My P.I.N.K Method kit has arrived. I feel like John Travolta from Grease.
"I got chills, there multiplying and I'm losing control."
...I better shape up, cause I got the method and my heart is set on skinny.

Really, I'm excited, emotional and determined. Originally I agreed to the P.I.N.K Method because my younger sister has too much free time and Dr. Phil told her it was a good idea. Now that she has me locked in and I actually spent $83 (Kit + Shipping & Handling) on this life style change, I'm vested. Not to mention we need weights and blenders and what not, more money.