Day 15; BREAD, Finally!!!!

I eat too many calories to log in my blog. Opposed to logging everything, I give you my net calories the next day. ...So, Today was the first time I tasted bread in 14 Days. It was so romantic. A moment that really can't be described in words. I was pretending not to notice it sitting on my desk but we locked eyes a couple of times. Bread whispered to me, I'm healthy, I'm 12 Grains, Whole Wheat. I asked myself, "is it really OK?"
I couldn't understand what was happening? ...I wasn't suppose to resist because Phase 1 allows bread but at this point, bread is so foreign to me. I took that first bite and realized the reason my bread didn't need butter is because I melted.
Oh, yeah. I finished Detox without cheating. (Bows, Bows). I am officially 20 pounds lighter and I am so happy to have my badge. Hence the reason I did not blog over the weekend. I was on a mission. All that I was able to do was eat, workout and sleep. I've never been so drained in my life.
Which is the reason why I pulled off of the P.I.N.K Method's diet plan, I had to remix it. If I see the scale going North, I'll go back to their rules and regulations but, I know if I don't eat 5 to 6 times a day my body is going to store fat and run itself into starvation mode. I've picked up two additional meals. I know I could stop exercising but I've pushed myself so far, I can't stop now.
Sunday, I ran 40 Min & walked 43 Min and did about 15 Min of stretching, which is far from the blog that talked about me running 1 Minute, so, yeah. I'm not stopping.
Walking/Running will be something of my future. Supposedly it take 7 days to develop a habit, I'm there.
I don't even know who the chick is that stares back from my mirror. She's way more independent and her drive is out of this world. Instead of sitting around doing nothing (and making excuses) I finally got off my ass and did something.
I loved sleeping in, now I can't. I'm so excite to start my day. I use to get up, shower and go to work all in the same breath. Now, I'm up between 5:10AM and 6AM.
Not sure if you know the song but I'm definitely feeling like Christina Aguilera, Reflection.

Who is that girl I see,
Staring straigh back at me,
When will her reflection show
Who I really am, Inside.

Love you all & Peace.

ttyl

Day 11; I RAN... Yes I did.

Breakfast (225 Calories)
No surprise in my calorie intake. It has been the same breakfast for the past ten days. ...but on a more me note. I RAN, OMG!!! I just can't believe that I took off running. It was for 1 Minute and then a break to catch my breath and then I did it again for 2 Minutes. Ha, I was literally like Forrest Gump, "I just felt like runnnnnnniiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnggggggggggg". ...and I did it, I felt so freaking accomplished. Like really, I never imagined this could happen to me. WOW. Not to mention today I am 16 pounds lighter, 4 pounds from my 20 pounds loss badge. Real talk though, I don't think my breast were designed to go into the air and come crashing back down. Seriously, they are so flipping heavy. I thought I was going to go rolling forward all the way home. Instead of this blog saying I ran, it would have said I rolled home ------ and not in a car. LOL... that is such a funny visual. I will keep it real. I hope after I lose this weight, I still have some nice boobs. After I finished my awesome morning cardio, I showered, weighed myself and made my protein shake. I headed to work while rushing to put on my make-up. Yeah, I may not be able to drive and text but I definitely make-up apply and drive. What, I'm careful. Once I got to work I noticed the kitchen had bagels. Yummy!!!! ...and there was also fresh fruit. Man, I did... (I will be honest, breakdown) ...I think a tear left my eye because I really wanted that bagel. I'm so burnt out on veggies. Seriously.  14 days of pure veggies and meat is illegal, yep. It is effective but so are other things that are illegal. Man, one day bread and I will meet again. Actually, after detox I'll be enjoy brown rice or wild rice and flourless bread. Yeah me. Not, really. But still, I ran. I did it. I flipping ran!
LUNCH (221Calories)
For lunch, I switched it up and had a chicken salad. I took half a day so after I left work (earlier), I was able to get in some twins and Aunt (T.T.) time. They are so flipping adorable. I had them in the back of my car when all of a sudden it got completely quiet. I looked back and they were knocked out. I needed a few things from Walmart. A food scale, Crystal burnt the last one, and a tape measure. Well, as you can imagine, the twins were not too happy when I woke them from their nap. They both cried. So, my two items ended up in toys for the twins. They hustled me into a stuff animal, bubble blowers and more bubbles. Yep, I'm a sucker. Then I bought them McDonalds. None for me right. Right... :( 
DINNER (114 Calories)
So, since I had a chicken salad for lunch I ended up having Tuna for dinner. Yummy, right. Wrong. I'm about tired of that salad but only three more days and detox will be over. For dinner I bought the twins and their step sisters pizza, yeah. No, still none for me. What a flipping day. Bagels, McDonalds and Pizza. Well, I succeeded in Fighting the Fat, I resisted every time and I can't believe this. Good job me. :)

Day 10; Fight the Fat, the MOVEMENT

BREAKFAST (225 Calories)
Welcome to the newbies and welcome back to those who have read my blog before. Today is my 10th Day in detox and I am cheat free. Also, I've hit a bench mark. 15 pounds lighter. Just 5 away from my 20 pound badge. Holla at cha girl. Now on to my day... I woke up @ 6:15AM because waking up at 6:30AM didn't give me enough time. Still, 6:15 wasn't enough either. I did get in a 35 minute power walk, although I didn't want to. I stayed up until after midnight watching movies which made me set my mind to making  walking the next morning optional, and I was leaning towards the sleeping in option. However Carmel, my older sister must of since my will to slack because she woke me up @ 6:13AM and just to know that she cared enough pushed me to get out of bed and go "Fight the Fat". Join the movement.
LUNCH (114 Calories)
I had the same boring tuna salad. I have taken all of the fun out of it by repeating it but, it is quick and it is low in calories. Lunch went by quickly as soon as it started it was over. I did talk to my mom who is excited and is definitely part of the "Fight the Fat" movement.
DINNER (256)
A chicken salad, which was actually really good. Rewinding back, I did get in a walk right after work. Then I started reading my P.I.N.K. booklet. Afterwards, I ran a couple of errands and then had dinner. I watched American Idol and went straight to bed. I can't believe how different I feel.
I definitely want to eat sugars and lots of carbs but its like the skinny chick inside me is tired of the fat chick running things.

BREAKFAST (225 Calories)
Guess what I had? I bet you can't. My Protein Shake. ...it was too much. This morning I set at my desk praying to get through my thick @$$ room temperature smoothie. Yucky. I didn't realize until I went to grab some strawberries out of the freezer that we did not have any frozen berries. Thank God their were some strawberries in the refrigerator. Today I noted that the smoothie definitely needs ice. This morning I started off with a prayer and a power walk. P&P! @ about 10PM, I felt like dropping my head on the desk and just knocking out. I think that these walks are draining me. I might have to revert back to power walking in the evening. I just can't focus with such little energy.

LUNCH (114 Calories)
Tuna salad, as boring as it is the calories intake is amazing. I am finding that I have less energy these days, maybe because I started working out despite that the book advise us not to. Ooops my bad. Not really.

DINNER (264 Calories)
I had my mushroom and red bell pepper roasted salad. It was delicious too. ...but, I want to rewind to right after work. I decided to get in a power walk and some stretches. I know I'm a heavy chick but why do drivers in their cars turn and look at me in awe. I wanted to scream you got to start somewhere. Anywho, I happily plopped my plump booty down the street rocking out to whatever was playing on my Evo. Then I got back to the house and did some stretches. Cooked dinner and sat down to enjoy a nice movie. My net intake was a negative. I noticed I'm not dropping pounds as fast as I was last week.

Day 08; Congrats to me for completing week one.

BREAKFAST (225 Calories)
So, I actually blog on my phone through out the day and then post at night. I'm letting you know this because I'm tired of going back at night and editing the tense of my blog. So here is an fyi, I'm not editing the tense anymore. If my blog is all over the place (tense wise) my bad. I woke up at 6:42AM oppose to 7:20AM and got in a 32 minute walk before work. My legs are killing me, these power walks are to much for the fat chick, the skinny b!+@# inside me is demanding and isn't really taking no for an answer. Seriously though, I've used muscles I didn't even realize I had but on a brighter note, I'm officially on week two of detox and I didn't even cheat. I really didn't see this happening and I definitely didn't see me walking. As I sit here sipping on my smoothie, I'm so delighted.

LUNCH (114 Calories)
Its getting kind of boring with the same lunch and breakfast everyday. I work so I have to eat what is quick, not to mention my boring tuna salad is so little calories I can't help but to keep eating them.
At lunch the twins had me doing the impossible I made oatmeal, butter & jelly toast, and a pepperoni and melted cheese sandwich with mayo and mustard. Gosh, It all smelled and looked so good. I knew the boys would waste most of it and back in the day, I looked forward to that. Now, I can't be their human garbage disposer. Sucks for me, right.

DINNER (256 Calories)
Dinner was definitely the best meal. I had no idea what I was going to have but I ended up have a chicken breast salad. Yummy. After dinner I was totally pooped. I cuddle on the couch with Monaco and next thing you know, I was out. That is the main reason I couldn't finish my blog.

Day 07; One week of detox down & one to go

BREAKFAST (222 Calories)

Woke up and immediately said a prayer, yesterday ended in a negative place. This morning I felt much better. I step on the scale and was down 2 more pounds which was excellent. I immediately woke up and did a 30 min power walk. Afterwards I went to Crystal's. Everyohe hene was sleep. After I grabbed a water bottle Jonnah appeared in the door frame of his room. I asked if he was hungry. While I made my protein shake, I multitask and made oatmeal while washing the dishes. Jonnah asked for Butter Toast. I made it and asked if he wanted jelly, he acted as if the idea was absurd. So I split his toast and made half with and half without. So since he was pretending jelly was foriegn to him he made me handle the toast until the jelly slid down my fingers. Instincts took precedence and I look the jelly from my fingers. The jelly was so foreign to my tongue I immediately knew it was wrong. I ran to the sink and spit it out before washing my mouth out.

LUNCH (116 Calories)

I had a repeat of yesterday's lunch. Today was the first time I had lunch away from the house. I had to attend Ellah's birthday party, by the way happy birthday Ms. Ellah Rae! There were cupcakes, pizza, chicken and pasta salad. I succeeded though, I didn't give into temptation, oh but-ah Crystal did. We were talking outside when Crystal got "weak". I asked her what was wrong and she lied and said, "My sugar is low I need a cupcake". Five minute later she was indulging. She relapsed and did food. I just couldn't do it. Old habits die hard so instead of getting on Crystal I offered to help her walk it off tonight

DINNER (241 Calories)
Yummy. I had steamed veggies and chicken. Usually I don't eat veggies and if I would eat them or steam them I'd buy steamers. Today my uncle taught me how to steam vegetables. He reminded me so much of my late Grandmother. Instead of giving direction he got up and took over. I'll will admit he showed me something new and great. So, all in all today was a great day and as much as I would love to stay and blog my nephew Jonnah is walking in circles trying to sit in my lap.

Peace, see you guys soon.

Day 06; So much more energy

BREAKFAST (222 Calories)

Hello, hello! So, I had my protein shake but ended up taking a walk before and after. I took the boys on a walk to the store oppose to driving. Afterwards I had them outside riding a bike and a scooter. Jonnah, scared the living daylights out of me when he decided to jump off his scooter and run home. We weren't far from the house but far enough that he was out of my site for about 30 seconds. Can you say lost my mind. I figured we'd be on the 5 O'clock news, either for a missing child or and beaten one. My God, I wanted to go toe to toe with a 3 year old when I got to the house and Crystal was walking out asking me what happen. I forgot to ask God for guidance and strength today. ...but I did take a moment to pray after that. After all that is said, I ended up burning 300 Calories making my net  -75, yes that is a negative seventy-five.

LUNCH (116 Calories)

I had a tuna salad. 4oz of Tuna in water (drained), 1/2 tablespoon of Reduced fat Mayo, 1 tablespoon of Frenchz Yellow Mustard, 1/2 a green onion, 1/2 a Roma Tomato and 2 cups of lettuce. It was filling but the calorie count is ridiculous considering other meals I've eaten. I took a 20 Minute walk with the twins and burnt that off immediately. Also tricked the twins into eating tuna and tomatoes. They don't know it yet but they are going healthy too. My 20 min walk burned 138 calories putting my net at -95. I really am working towards a happy healthier me.

DINNER (365 Calories)

Man, I am definitely feeling like I deserve a treat. I need bread, at this point I am so tired of flipping vegetables. They like don't satisfy my taste buds ( period). I wanted to do food today, my night went downhill and fast. The boiler broke at Crystal's and my body is craving a shower more than I am craving chocolate or carbs. I'd turn a trick for a cinnamon roll. I have no idea how I am going to survive Ellah's birthday party tomorrow. Please pray for me. Oh and by the way I had chicken and green beans for dinner. I might take a walk or at least that is what the skinny b!+@# would like but the fatter me has that b!+@# in a headlock screaming, "Now what!"